The last words I ever said to her

 

 

The last words I ever said to her were the exact same words I had said to her  twenty years before “You and your boyfriend are the exact same people. There is no difference between you two. He’s a hustler and pimp and you are spineless weasel. If there has ever been two people who deserve each other, it you two”

I gave that same short speech at least three times  year for the next twenty years. I wasn’t being mean. She never changed her ways. I didn’t shout them out. I spoke them slowly and methodically because I wanted them be heard. I wanted them to sink in.

 Of course the last time I said to that her I wasn't aware she had been seeing Lohman for a more than a year and had been dating him, while she lived with me, off and on for ten tears.

I know that because the idiot left copies of their love letters in his wife's computer system and she printed them out. 

Screw the memories  and all the kind and gentle words between us because if I had to live my life over again there wouldn’t be a spot for you.  I wish I'd never met you and I believe that the reason I met you was to the universe made a mistake, meeting you was an awful accident that happened because God looked the other way for a moment.

There is no good lesson to learn from you, it didn’t make a better person or a stronger person or a cynical person. Knowing you was just a waste of time, a misfortune.

Nothing good has come from knowing you. You said “You’re always leaving” But I never left because you pressured me, you begged me to stay. I should have kept walking.